Reflections

As I reflect on the past year I can see how beautifully everything has come together. I look back and can see all the change that occurred not only within me but also around me.

I can see who I was in the beginning, middle & the end of the year. I notice how certain experiences changed me and altered my perception. I find myself becoming emotional when seeing photos of the person I used to be because I know that I will never be the same. I will never be that girl in that experience with that perspective ever again. This lead to me realizing that I must mourn who I once believed I was. It’s hard to say the least but it’s rewarding and worth it. I had to mourn who I used to be in order for me to step into who I authentically am. In the process I had to release expectations that I previously held for myself because how we expect our life to turn out is actually never how it’s supposed to be. (Tough pill to swallow) But I also find gratitude in the process because looking back I can see that the girl I used to be was happy, yes but she was not fulfilled.

I think we can all relate to that in one way or another. We have all had to mourn or let go of parts of ourselves that no longer resonate, parts we’ve been holding onto for so long and we struggle when we realize that we are not who we used to be. We became attached to the idea of who we were but deep down we know things have changed and we need to let go. But with loss and death comes birth, you now have the space to become new and re-born. By releasing who you no longer are, you give yourself permission to discover who you are.

2022 cut me really fucking deep, my heart break was used as a mirror into myself. This reflection allowed me to see and act on my worth after a lifetime of being a stranger to it and for that I am eternally grateful.

Thank you 2022, you were a beautiful mess.

Much love and gratitude, Brie🤍